4.02.2007

Searching for the Pagoda

I have spent a good part of this past week a little lost in memory, childhood memories of a visit to Honolulu. I remember three main things about that early trip, being swept along Waikiki in a current, hundreds of koi at the Pagoda, and crying for both sides at the USS Arizona Memorial. Years later I spent many trans pacific stopovers seaching Oahu phone books and flyers for a floating restaurant. I ended up rediscovering the Pagoda when I first exhibited in Honolulu. I found myself standing at the same spot I had stood 23 years earlier. It is a funny feeling to sweep over you. As soon as you stop looking for it, you find it. The Pagoda is a place caught in time. Somewhere in the late sixties to mid seventies. A comfortable, humble constant in a world of rapid change. I enjoyed my breakfast talks with Beverly and dinner chats with Roland who collectively had logged in 52 years working the tables there. They told me about the changes, while I saw the similarities. I did the math and calculated that Beverly was working there when I made my first trip. She spoke of the loss of so many koi, an illness that struck many years back. She sees loss while I see life. Hundreds of lives swirling in color fields of orange, red, white and black. Maybe I needed to remember the life, especially since this trip was to get some distance from the family deaths that seemed to never end. My child brain needed to see a flury of life on a bus tour between Punchbowl and Pearl Harbor, we all needed to see some life that day. Perhaps it is those sharp contrasts that make Honolulu so memorable.

1 comment:

Cally said...

Anna, another beautiful post. This medium is so perfect for you, you are the most evocative story teller.

I was popping over to say thanks for your emails and that I did reply to last weeks ones, but I gather from your recent one that you didn't get them. I sent them from my away-from-home email so they may be in your bulk mail/junk/spam box. Have a look to see if there is anything in there from Freecycle, that'll be mine.

If not let me know and I will head to my home comuter to resend from my normal email ( I avoid it cause it's freezing over there just now).

Cx